"Never let the problem to be solved become more important than the person to be loved." I have always love this quote, I have preached it and I have most importantly lived it. But now that I look at my life right now and how it is playing and how it NEEDS to play out were not on the same wave length. It was almost as if I would have to go against my favorite quote to do the right thing. Seems so simple right?

I have had to see this in a different light, I am someone who HATES hurting others, especially ones that have meant the most to me in my life. I don't need to know them for years to know that they have truly made a difference in my life. But the word love speaks to me in so many different ways now. This quote forgot to mention what love really means, so many of us misinterpret the meaning of love. In school I have studied the three different levels of love, Passion love, Companionate love, and Intimacy love; but this isn't exactly in any of those categories.

We all know that love brings pain, sorrow, agony, and can bring the worst and best out of us. Love can bring joy, peace, and happiness and thats why we chose to love, we chose to take that risk factor and let someone touch our lives forever.

Right now in my life that 'love' means letting go, feeling that pain, but also bringing peace upon what NEEDS to be done. It will be hard, but the Lord has let me know that it will be worth it, at times I will be weak, but He will make me strong if I listen and follow Him. Because two people love each other, it does not mean they are meant for one another. In fact it can mean even more than that, it can mean that because one or the other knows that they aren't meant for each other, that space, time, and moving on is desperately NEEDed. So in my life I will continue to make mistakes, I will continue to learn and grow because I want my dream, I want what that promise, but it takes steps at a time.

I will not let my mind be over powered by the situation over love, but I in-turn will understand that what love will entitle, right now it is to move on. Find a new adventure and a new love, only through faith in my Savior will this be possible, but I do have FAITH.

When God speaks, it shall be done. This is a phrase that I have been pondering upon and one that I am trying to be at peace with. I know it will bring me happiness and true joy in the future, but right now it only brings pain. We can let time heal our pain, but what if you are causing pain in someone else life because of this phrase? What if they don't understand why you are taking the actions and moving on with your life? Oh how at times I wish that God could change his mind and I wish that I didn't have to move on, but I do. (Period)
I am taking time on my own to discover how happy I can be without that important thing/person in my life. I just want them to be happy as well, the hard thing is that I am one of the only happy things in their lives. :( I am trying to be strong... nothing can ever be the same, nothing will never be the same.
I don't want to be confused anymore, that is of the devil, I don't want to be a fool, and I do have to accept the facts. Judgment needs to be made in the correct aspect, Christ taught that we need to have good judgment so we can live a healthy life. I can forgive, but I cannot subject myself to what I and God know to be unhealthy for me.
I wish many others could begin to understand that beginning phrase like I am trying to understand through my actions... When God speaks, it shall be done ....